Monday, October 17, 2011

A gentle reminder

Today is one of those days where I am an emotional mess, and it's bad. I had a break down about a paper I have to write. Papers are my weakness...BIG TIME. Not only that, but I have always struggled in understanding what is being taught or said and struggled in my studies ever since I can remember. I've always had to put in extra effort to complete a simple assignment and re-read things to understand it. It's been a constant battle to not feel stupid and to know that I am not stupid, that I am capable of so many things, and that I can make my dreams come true. Some days I am able to stare my problem in the face and say, "I CAN DO THIS!"

Other days...I cant. like today.

I let my problem control me rather than me control my problem. I believed the lies that I felt whispered in my mind and heart, "You can't do this. Just give up. You're stupid and not capable. It will be so much easier to not even try." At this point my problem is staring me in the face and laughing. That's when I broke down and cried for about an hour, and I mean cry. I felt powerless and alone.

Then something so wonderful happened.

I felt the love of my Heavenly Father as He spoke peace to my mind.
I felt His love burn in my bosom.
I felt His arms wrap around me.
I felt Him strengthen me.
I felt His gentle reminder that anything is possible.
I felt that I could do anything!

I needed this and He knew it.

I am reminded of the story of Moses Chapter 1:
12 And it came to pass that when Moses had said these words, behold, aSatan came btempting him, saying: Moses, son of man, worship me.
 13 And it came to pass that Moses looked upon Satan and said: Who art thou? For behold, I am a ason of God, in the similitude of his Only Begotten; and where is thy bglory, that I should worship thee?
 16 Get thee hence, Satan; deceive me not; for God said unto me: Thou art after the asimilitude of mine Only Begotten.

 18 And again Moses said: I will not cease to call upon God, I have other things to inquire of him: for his aglory has been upon me, wherefore I can judge between him and thee. bDepart hence, Satan.

I know I am a child of God, created after His image. Because of this, I can do anything. I have limitless potential. If I put my trust and faith in him, I can accomplish anything. The gospel of Jesus Christ is the most comforting and beautiful truth on this earth. I know it's true. I know my Heavenly Father loves me and is very aware of me and my breakdowns, my weaknesses, my deceptive encounters with Satan, my potential, my desires, and my fears. He created me. He is my Heavenly Father and I am His daughter. How grateful I am for His infinite love and concern and for the tender reminders as He holds me with a love that is indescribable. I know the atonement of Jesus Christ is real, because without it I would never receive the comfort He gives me. He KNOWS EXACTLY what I am going through and feeling because he felt it too. He knew all the things I would face and he knew what I would need. I love the teachings of the scriptures and the power they hold to lift me up on days like today. 

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Family Pictures :)

We needed new family pictures so our wonderful friend, Erica, took them for us. She did such a great job. Here are just a few.

Sunday, October 9, 2011


I finally got to make some crafts!!!!!!!!!!! I cant wait to graduate college cause then I can just make crafts all day long :)  If you can't tell by now I LOVE making crafts. We had a lazy, relaxing, me filled Saturday. Which was really nice because for the last 6 months we have been working every Saturday. Kyle got to watch college football all day long and I got to make two crafts for 10 dollars!! I was at Porters for, I kid you not, 2 hours deciding on ideas and supplies. It was so relaxing.

Here is my Halloween decoration that I made. It cost me about $3. Oh, and I don't mean to toot my own horn but"spooky nights" is handwritten not vinyl. This project took me some time, but I was sooo excited!!

This is my Thanksgiving decoration. This one was a bit more, $7. It's the center piece for our coffee table :)