Thursday, March 22, 2012


      I've been feeling weak and overwhelmed with school and work lately. I just wish I could take a break and have my mom come here, or me go to my mom. I feel kinda gypped out cause I don't get to have my mom take care of me during my pregnancy like she did for my sister-in-law and my sister. It sucks living away from home sometimes. I don't feel like going to class or work. I feel like quitting my job so I can have one less thing to stress about. I feel like dropping out of school but I know I'll regret it because I'm so close to being done. Homework is so difficult to do because all my classes consist of working with a group, which adds more stress to my days. I'm up to my eyes with research, papers, meetings, and projects. But even though I've been feeling so overwhelmed and ready to give up, I have felt strengthened. I have felt the hand of the Lord carrying me through what I cannot do myself. At the end of the day I look at all that I have accomplished, despite feeling sick and tired, and know that it was because of His help. I have received the motivation and help that I need to accomplish my tasks of the day through the atonement of Jesus Christ. I know I wouldn't be able to successfully accomplish what I need to do were it not for that. I am so thankful for the atonement and all that it has done and will continue to do for me in my life. 

"My [daughter], my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Heartbeat Fast

      We got to see our baby and hear its heartbeat for the first time on February 28th :D The experience was amazing!!!! We have been so excited for this moment. It helped make the pregnancy more real (as if the constant nausea wasn't real enough, haha). Laying on the chair and feeling the coldness of the blue ultrasound jelly being squeezed onto my stomach was so anticipating. The doctor then pulled out the ultrasound camera thingy and pressed hard on my abdomen. Instantly we heard a fast, humming sound. It was the heartbeat of our child :D It was  such a tender moment as we smiled and held each others hands.  It was as though time stood still for a few seconds. It's heartbeat sounded like that of a hummingbird. Shortly after, the doctor turned on the camera and there our child small as it could be. Our smiles intensified and it was as though we couldn't smile any bigger!! He or she was wiggling around. It's tiny little arm buds started flapping like we were being waved to :) The doctor measured the baby and found that I am right as planned...9 weeks. Making it's due date October 2, 2012.